Depression really is a sickness. It’s like getting a cold. One day, you’ll feel slightly off. You’ll think to yourself, ‘this is weird, it’s a beautiful day but I kind of don’t like anything,’ and shrug it off. The next day you’ll sit in your room for a while, unable to do anything because you just feel this sort of overwhelming mental cloud in your mind. ‘Why should I do anything?’ you wonder, ‘This is all stupid.’ The next day it’s in full effect, this mental cold, and your brain can’t breathe right and the weight is heavier. It’s like a flu in your mind. So you just curl up in a blanket, not wearing any clothes, with no physical impairments to speak of, and ride it out. You sob, you remember every horrible thing you’ve ever done, you think about how the future will surely bring nothing but failure. You can go out, you can see people, you can be yourself but it’s like the whole time you can’t breathe. Then, hopefully the day after (but sometimes it can be weeks) it’s just gone. You’re better. You can, in a sense, breathe out of that stuffed-up nostril again. Anyone who suffers from this, I just want you to know: I feel you, and it sucks. I like to take selfies when I’m bawling, because it makes me laugh and brings me out of it, a bit. But there’s no real cure. We’re here for each other, and that’s all we have.
The Fear of Success: What Do You Really Want? | Jayme K.
You want people to read your book. You want people to watch your movie. You want people to hear your music. But when it comes right down to it you’re not prepared to put forth the effort to obtain your goal.
That’s because you don’t want to be successful. You romanticize the idea of success. You think, ‘Well, it’d be really neat if someone read my book,’ but you do nothing to put it in front of their faces. You expect them to find it in the publish-on-demand dungeon of trite that is Amazon’s eBook section.
People want to be writers, filmmakers, musicians, artists, the list goes on… These are all difficult careers to become successful at, but it is not impossible. You pitying your own work, or not thinking that you’re good enough, is not going to get you anywhere. It takes passion, a willingness to learn, a certain amount of brains, a lot of cleverness, and plenty of networking just to get noticed.